I Am Lonely

I am just lonely. Always have been. I’m shy and have mental health problems. Nobody understands the way I really am. Nobody actually cares. I had people belittle my thoughts so much that I doubt everything now. My dad died 2 months ago, my mom doesn’t understand me at all and wishes I were different, and my brother and son live far away. I don’t have any “real life” friends to speak of. I am very alone. :'-(